Tuesday, December 28, 2010
thinking about my life and what I am what to do and accomplish for 2011
thinking about having a turkey sandwich on caraway bread with cranberries delish
thought long and hard about my word for the 2011 it is fearless
i want to be fearless in my life
fearless in my art
fearless in my relationships
this year has taught me alot - I looked after my mom for a year, and now I feel berfet like a big chunk of my life is goine, and I am just floating around. Because I was so busy looking after my mom I let other parts of my life slip away or just ignored for the sake of my sanity..i let things go on in my life that had I been on it, wouldnt have happened. So this year I am ready to tackle my life. I still feel fragile and unsteady and wonder If i am strong enough to tackle something head on. But truthfully I am ready I have put up with shit to long.
I was not going to say anything, I didn't tell you the issue, I am not that open in the cyber world just knowing that I said something is a step for me. So this is all you will hear about this from me.
Issues in my life affect me and my art, they tire me out and consequently making art has not been a big priority in life lately. But I have been missing it and feel ready to do something creative anything with my hands to make me happy.
I have been like Julia Roberts, in EAT PRAY LOVE I have been trying to mediate its not coming easy for me, my head wont stop and be still, but I am determined and keep trying.
Well this pity party is over for today, hope I did not scare you away with all this heavy stuff. I promise to try and be more upbeat from now on