I would like to thank you all very much for such heartfelt messages
that you left me, I was truly touched. It was all very quick with
my mother though she had been in the hospital 3 weeks. I had
notified my sister that I thought she should come and see Mum.
She got to see my mother, and that night we all laughed and
joked and kissed her and both told her we loved her and
we would see you tomorrow. I think my mother was waiting
to see my sister and then she could let go. So at least
she did not suffer and she knew that she was very much loved.
So I have not been sleeping to much, my mind is whirling and
trying to keep the grief at bay. She has been my whole life
the last while, as she has been ill for quite a long time. So
now my life will get back to normal, but now I have
to find out what a normal is.
So my late nights I have spent in the studio, either just
sitting there and creating nothing worth showing, or just sitting there
thinking about something to create. I feel a creative slump coming on.
I had an old Anthropology bag and cut it up, and had this picture
from a magazine of a really older lady, with lots of wrinkles and
really weathered looking, so I started playing around with that.
Trying to take it to a different level trying to make it look
like it was just painted. I don't think it quite hit the mark, but
I must say it looks nothing like it did before.